.

you know that feeling where

you stuff yourself with food,
 
do dangerous things,

mutilate yourself

just to be able to feel something,


anything.


to fill that void of emptiness inside

and it's hard
so hard
to desperately find ways

to feel anything

other than pain

but that sickening emptiness in your core

never disappears


it just stays there like a gaping hole,
scaring anyone who dares
to come close