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say hi to cry

On Friday, November 22, 2013 by with No comments - , , , , , , , , , , , ,
 
 
 

 



say hi to 4:35 pm

On Sunday, November 3, 2013 by with No comments - , , , , , , , ,
the raindrops keep falling hard
splick splak
and along with it
goes the beating of my heart
it feels overwhelming
but strangely comforting
at the same time

how can something
that gives you great joy
cause you so much pain?

it's scary how love can change people
it's scary how people can change
but
it's even scarier when you
change yourself to match
the people you love

say hi to the end

On Monday, October 28, 2013 by with No comments - , ,
 

i guess this is the end
it was painful while it lasted
will i feel better once everything
has been said and done?

because this feeling that im feeling
is consuming me,
rotting my insides,
and poisoning my mind

in the end 
i watched myself fall
like a bystander
watching my pain from afar
destroying myself in the process
and hurting the people round me

im sorry 
but sorry is not enough
this will never be enough
nothing will never be enough
i am not enough

i was nothing, i am nothing, i were nothing

say hi to staircase

On Tuesday, October 8, 2013 by with No comments - , ,
I don’t want to abandon anything in this world yet

I know that there is so much more reason to live

but lately I’m not sure

if I have the energy

or motivation

to do anything anymore.

it feels like

I’m falling into a

spiral staircase, spiraling down

into madness

with no one to help me, no one who knows



the façade I put is cemented

but it’s starting to have cracks

sooner or later water will

come spewing out

breaking the wall that I have built for so long

it leaves me feeling naked

and bare

no one to run to, nothing to run from

but myself

and my self-made world of destruction

slowly spiraling into madness

and eventually,

hopefully,



into oblivion.