i feel like i made the right choice
but right or not im going to where it makes me happy
if i stayed any longer i really feel like im
going to kill myself

the course was great
but i dont feel like i belong
i've never fitted anywhere good in my life
i hate it

its kind of weird to study psychology
when i myself am a nutcase

but i want to understand
why i am the way i am
and why people are the way they are
and why we hurt each other
when we're suppose to love

change seems like a soft haze
i hate change
i want everything to be constant
but maybe it's time
to let go of things
and start anew

the raindrops keep falling hard
splick splak
and along with it
goes the beating of my heart
it feels overwhelming
but strangely comforting
at the same time

how can something
that gives you great joy
cause you so much pain?

it's scary how love can change people
it's scary how people can change
but
it's even scarier when you
change yourself to match
the people you love